I know it sounds a strange title but it comes from my favourite Poem, this Poem helps me so much. poets.org/viewmedia.php/prm...
It reminds me to be kind to myself when I am not measuring up to my own expectations, and to be kind to others too, even though they might be driving me nuts. I have been reasonably well lately, but I seem to be disorganized in my apartment. Its small and I always have it clean, but its untidy due to my painting bit and pieces, some days I find it so hard to motivate myself to tidy it up and put stuff where it should go. Then I sit and look at the mess and get really down and feel I am a total failure and a procrastinator, so this causes me a lot of pain, I feel I am not kind to myself sometimes.
In between this mess I had a lovely time last week with my friends two girs Hannah 12 and Rachel who is 9. They love coming to me and that means a lot to me as I could not have children. I love them to bits, and know I am a warm kind and loving person. But I find it so hard to prioritise house chores and just get overwhemed. I find it really hard to ask for help, its the way I am, and I notice that people always tell me their worries and problems, and rarely ask how I am doing. My friend says its because I am too kind, so I need to work on being maybe more assertive.
I get a lot of help and hope from reading everyones posts and Sue especially gives such compassionate and practical advice. Does anyone have any ideas I could use for tidying up my stuff and getting on top of things, I hope this blog was not too boring and too much of a mish mash.
Love to you all