Feeling Hopeless

[ecamnxela]

I've been feeling down for the last 9 weeks, i originally put this down to a relationship break down but it was myself who broke off the relationship because my feeling were nil anymore. For the last six weeks, i've been unable to sleep until 2/3 in the morning and have experienced broken sleep. I've been late for work every single day whether it be by 5 minutes or 25 minutes and i feel so unorganised that i'm constantly trying to organise my life but i usually end up just sitting in a chair or going to bed when i get home because i have no energy. I recently dated someone who i really started to be interested in and they unfortunately were not interested in anything serious with me, despite only having been on a couple of dates, i feel like it's really hit me and ultimately, i feel like i just need to sort my life out and get a grip but i can't. I've constantly got this heavy feeling on my chest, feel like i want to cry and i can't eat anything despite wanting to. I've eaten a tuna roll today and i thought i was going to vomit. Quite frankly just sick of feeling like a useless piece of nothing. I'm currently supposed to be training for a half marathon and despite exercise supposedly helping with down moods, i'm so bad at my running because i'm not fuelling my body correctly. It's like i'm in a circle of failure.

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Hello ecamnxela and welcome to our friendly and supportive Community.

Your feeling down and inability to get to sleep until the small hours of the morning sounds like they are linked. This may be due to the breakdown of your relationship. I know you broke off the relationship but sub-consciously you may need time to come to terms with the finality of your decision. Only you know how you feel about that ecamnxela.

Feeling down, difficulty getting to sleep, having low energy and poor appetite are all signs of depression. It may be wise to make an appointment to see your GP to ensure it is depression and maybe get some help to lift your mood.

You will find in time you start to feel brighter and more positive. In the meantime try to be kind to yourself, one step at a time. Have you heard about Mindfulness Guided Relaxation? You can download free tracks from YouTube. Try to build this into your day if you find it helpful.

Please let us know how you get on ecamnxela. We are always here if you need us, take care,

Lottie x