ISuffered with depression on and off for years, worked through most of them, but now unemployed. At first, really enjoyed being at home, looking after my granddaughters from time to time, keeping the house clean and tidy and gardening. I got flu the day before Christmas Eve, so missed out on the celebration and seeing family. Took about three weeks to recover and I am now feeling so low, I can't function. Still on antidepressants and GP has added diazepam, but last week I contacted the IAPT self referral service. went through an assessment, told I could have CBT but it could be a couple of months before I receive an appointment. Finding it hard to do anything. Have pushed family away, don't want them to see me like this. Husband doesn't understand, just tells me to get on with it. Keep looking at the Samaritans number, but feel I would be wasting their time. Everyone says exercise and eat well, both of which I can't force myself to do. Have no friends to confide in or talk with. Confidence is shot.