I have suffered from depression since I was 11 yrs old. I am now 42 years old, it got worst. I also had violence and abuse since I was 18, and now suffer from PTSD. The depression has destroyed my life, and I cannot go on, no more. Killing myself is only way out for me, I try to keep myself together, but the mood, is anger, and also frustration, I have no family now, just me. Only me. Going to doctors tomorrow