Morning all New here and have so many issues So please bear with me.
I had cervical cancer at the age of 23 I was told by a doctor Xmas eve, he got a piece of paper and wrote 1...2...3...4...Ca
Then drawn a line from the 1 to the 4 (@ this point i did not even no why i had a pre appointment asking me to get to the doctors asap)I must also add that i had just moved home with my daughter and my new partner. I told my partner to drop me off and told him to get some sticky tape to wrap the last of the xmas presents.I had always experienced painful sex with bleeds afterwards. I just thought that was normal and never told anyone .Also i was very much career minded and a late started with my periods. To the point my mum had taken me to the doctors to ask if it was normal as i was 15/16 yrs old. Anyway i got my first period at16/17. I had sex TWICE and fell pregnant I was unaware that i was pregnant and just thought that the irregular periods was just that until i went to the doctors because of a cough. I was preparing to go abroad to work with horses. To my surprise the doctor told me i was pregnant and about 7months. I went in with a silly cough and came out with basically a baby I had heard the heartbeat and for me to say i was overwhelmed was a understatement. As for my boyfriend at the time just looked at me and said "that's inconvenient" The day before i had been show jumping at a high level,and had also fallen off my youngster. Trying to shorten this however it's all relevant information. I then started having sciatic within 4wks of that i had a little baby girl in my arms (I must add that i had been beaten up by the b'friend) So i was now alone a child with a child. My dad told me that i had made my and that was that, so disowned and no where to live and back in 1990 there was no support for me and my baby I had to go it alone. Very protective of my girl I didn't date I never had sex again. Then one day this tall blonde hair and blue eyed man seem to come into my life and changed it forever. I went to add a big thank you to him,as after 10years with him life was amazing and we had his 2 daughter's and mine Always to be known as "our girls"
Finally we were all a happy family Until the night i had a awful feeling of dred. I didn't sleep and i knew, I knew even before i was told that he was dead. Killed in a car crash!!!! Telling 3daughter's daddy is no longer with us Another story..... Going back to the beginning I had forgotten i had a smear test as the nurse was unpleasant and told me she couldn't get it done as i was not keeping still I told her as i was crying as it was hurting and i was in a lot of pain. I moved not longer after that and left the region. The only reason i had been to the doctors was to register my daughter At the start of this post i you how the doctor had done this kinda quick doodle and then told me that i was in stage 4of cervical cancer and by just looking at the results he said it looked like the results of a woman of the age of late 40's and after Xmas i would be getting treatment Also he remarked that i was very lucky as it was aggressive and to be prepared for a battle Now i have to tell my new partner of 6months that our world was about to get rocked and i didn't want to burden him and give him the chance to have a out! I remember it like it was yesterday I had insulted him he was so distrort devastated by the news and when we were so news. We got threw together, Now cancer and i had a relationship between us When ppl kindly remarked how strong i was. I would say that i am not any different nor am i any stronger to any other person who are in the same boat and worse.However with all that now im 48 I've not had a period for 18months My hormones level is normal Then we are in a pandemic so i can't see a doctor and im on df 30mg ,x8 Diazepam pregablyn and Mitrapram and have been for 25years So randomly the doctors has decided to get me of them by a letter In the worse part of a pandemic So again im struggling in every way and reaching out to any one whom has any information that may help me Sorry this is so long.
Thinking about having a baby
Any hot flash relief from anything? I'm dying here and I don't know what to try next...
Between stages and fertility events
What do I do now? Help me please!
