Emotional start to the week

[Fittea]

So yesterday was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for me.. weighed myself shortly after getting up and it said 26st 3lbs, and I felt sad because I know for the few days before official weigh day I was at 26st 1lb so I was expecting to break the 26st mark.

Later in the day I decided to have a bath, to relax and hopefully feel better. Before I got in, I decided to weigh myself again. I still hadn't eaten anything. Only differences were I reweighed naked and it was a few hours after getting up. This time it said 26st 1lb. Yay! I stepped off, waited, did it again, and repeated about 5 times just to be sure. Always 26st 1lb.

So I don't know if there was something off with the scales or if my body was adjusting to being vertical after waking up (I don't know if thats a thing but it kinda makes sense, to me anyway). So yesterday, at week 5, I was at a 10lbs loss!

Now I was happier, although still feeling "low" which I have been for a few weeks now. After the bath, I sat on my bed drying my hair and started thinking about my cat Elsa who died in 2018. It's been a while since I have got upset or cried about her but it just got to me for some reason. I ended up crying for about half hour and having my boyfriend come hug me while it passed.

So I went from sad to happy to depressed to okay in the space of 6 hours lol. I'm doing okay today. How is everyone else so far this week?

[lucigret]

Hi Fittea,

Well done on your excellent loss so far. I think you will find that your weight will vary from day to day, I can't explain why. The best thing to do is to stick to the same routine each week and way at the same time of day of weigh in day

You did have a roller coaster of emotions, but I am pleased to see you have a supportive boyfriend and are feeling ok today

[monday1957 3kg]

Hi Fittea and I hope your day improved and that you're feeling proud of your healthy eating journey and progress so far!

Something resonated with me reading your description of your emotions yo-yoing around earlier....as lucigret commented, you have the loving arms of your bf to help ease the pain when you're feeling down, so that's a massive plus ☺️

I don't blame you feeling sad about Elsa. I can still recall with crystal clear clarity the occasions when my beloved moggies passed away. I always think tears are better out than buried away.

Re weighing yourself, just do it the same time, once a week and without clothes. But more importantly, also log your measurements and maybe consider keeping a diary where you record how you're feeling e.g. do you have more energy? Do you feel empowered by being back in control of your eating? etc

All the best 🙋🏽

[Annekelly58]

Oh no Fittea, you sound to be having a rotten time. I'm so sorry you're upset. Frustrating as it is, I wouldn't worry about little blips; let's face it, you can wee away a pound, or appear to put one on with a cuppa. That's not real weight. If you're lighter than you were at the start, then you're succeeding in your aim and your healthier. That makes you a winner. It's so difficult being a good pet owner. We become so attached to our furry friends and often care more about them than people we know. It's not surprising you're grieving, even after this length of time. When you feel the need, take half an hour, and allow yourself to remember your cat and to recognise it's gone. No longer though. Life's for living! Be kind to yourself. Take care and best wishes.

[Sewneat]

Hi. It’s always so sad when a person or animal you love isn’t there any more and the really sad emotion can pop up anytime, especially when you least expect it.

You sound very positive now and everyone wishes you good luck as you continue on your weight loss journey. Keep up the good work and you’ll reach your goal with the support from this website.

[Subtle_badger]

Ah. You're catastrophizing. Taking a situation, and putting the most negative possible spin on it; in this case, taking a 2lb/week weight loss (which is as fast as authorities say you should lose, thus a brilliant success) and reframing it as a failure. Then later you search your memories for a sad event, and focus on that.

This is not a judgement. I have done it too. Though more common with me is pushing negative thoughts down rather than dealing with them.

You need to notice yourself doing it, and try to break the cycle. There is a lot of advice online about dealing with it, and I found CBT therapy quite useful in stopping it happening - if you are in the UK, you might be able to self refer to that through the NHS. I assume therapy is still going on virtually during the lockdown.

psychcentral.com/lib/what-i...

(I'm not a doctor, this is not a diagnosis)

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My weight fluctuates throughout the month up to 8lbs. It’s quite possible to lose a couple of pounds through several loo trips during a morning. My time of the month makes a huge difference as is how much salt I have eaten. I find it useful to weigh myself a lot, track my weight on an app & look back to see what happens over the course of a month. Obviously when my weight first pinged up inexplicably I was upset like you, but I now I know that on the 7th of every month I weigh a lot more. Tomorrow the weight will be off. It’s just that. Weight not fat.