Hey hey!
The past few weeks have been rough and I've been struggling with sticking to my calories and depression. There's been quite a few things happening to influence my mood -- I won't bore anyone with the details -- but I have good news! From Saturday I managed to pull myself back together! Just in time for Xmas! Yay!
Saturday I went out for a meal with my mum and my kids. I was still depressed after. However we had a last minute decision to go late shopping. My mum gave my girls some money to buy me some Xmas gifts and my mum had planned to buy me jewellery but was struggling to do so without me present so we went jewellers and I picked a loverly gold diamond ring. Diamond is my birthstone. And perhaps "diamonds are a girls best friend" really is true too lol as I felt very happy and thankful and from that point things started looking up!
I decided to (once again) look at my schedule and meal plans and made some changes. I do love feeling in control and I think a big part of my feeling depressed was due to feeling things had got out of control as I had dropped some exercise and given up my studying and as a reflection started losing control of my eating too.
Anyways... I have given up getting up at 6am and exercising early morning. Its just so dark and cold it was really difficult! It does mean my puppy has to be on his own an extra 40 mins twice a week when I run after work. But he's a bit older now (4 1/2 months) and although originally I wanted to exercise in the morning to minimize his time alone it just wasn't working. When the mornings get lighter I may change again. On the other days I do walking and he comes with me. So its only two days a week.
I've also restarted my studying. Not a lot but as long as I am plodding forwards I feel happier than when I am not getting any done.
I have found an eating schedule that is at the moment stopping me succumbing to the biscuits at work mid-morning. It does seem to be a process. I don't think I can make one plan and say "right this is it. This will work forever." I need to keep adapting to my hunger - which can change depending on the seasons it seems! And also not getting bored of the same foods. So adaptability is definitely key!
And the best news... My weight is back to 8st 13lbs. Which is where I wanted it to be before Xmas! From tomorrow I am not counting calories for a week and enjoying the Xmas treats! Tomorrow the kids and I are having a movie and take away night. As I've been good all week I am looking forward to it more!
Then after Xmas and the New Year I am looking forward to setting some new goals and targets!
I hope everyone else is ready and set for Xmas and going to have a loverly season!!
Bless you all!!!