Hi, I haven't been on here for a few months now and anyone who can remember me will know that I have had big issues with trying to lose weight. Diagnosed a many years ago, have had yearly testing, have had thyroxine adjusted, up mostly , but once they put it down. And have been on 150 mcg daily for 2 years or so I suppose now.
Basically ever since diagnosis, I have found weight loss a real issue when anything I tried to do in the diet/exercise line failed drastically.
I would go up a pound, down a pound, up 2 lb, down 12 oz, felt terrible in myself with a general but relentless increase in weight. At my heaviest I was well over 15 stones.
Dr's just kept saying 'calories in have to be less than calories out Sandra, that is why you aren't losing weight!'
The last doctor who I approached early this year- when I was in Stoke, looking after my mother - told me the same thing, calories in have to be less than calories out (you stupid) woman, when are you going to learn! But also told me that my 1 hour a day walk (as fast as I could manage) must be 'pleasant' for me, but I was older now and didn't need too many calories. So the only exercise that I should be doing is one of these programmes where I workout like this - here I promise you, he got on an exercise bike in the surgery and peddled madly for 15 seconds, then reduced it to a slow crawl for a minute or so - and I was told to choose something like that rather than a slow meander around for an hour a day. And of course I also had to reduce drastically my calorie intake, stop eating cream cakes etc I suppose.
I have tried vegan, vegetarian, keto, starvation, (worked very well but unsustainable) . I was convinced it was thyroid related, but no one else thought so. Over the years I have had to cut it out of my mind for long periods, because it drastically affected my mental health, I have never been ready to be happy being huge. I was 10st 4lbs for most of my adult life, always knew what size clothes would fit me etc etc. Since thyroxine I have no idea what size of jeans I might be able to get into today! At my biggest, I wore men's jeans in size 44inch waist!!
I am 68 next month, I have degenerative spine, diagnosed at the age of 42 years as a 'grossly abnormal spine for a woman of my age'. There is no way that I could use an exercise bike. I have tried it in physio, along with traction, plaster jacket, injections into my spine etc etc. 1st time was ok, 2nd time I had to be taken home in an ambulance because I could not walk, never mind drive home. So I sat in that surgery with my mouth hanging open wondering why I had even bothered approaching him or any other GP for that matter.
There have been times when I have lost weight by dieting. 2011/12 I lost 3 stones, kept it off and bought a load of new clothes in early 2013, and promptly started to gain again! Same diet, same activity levels and medication.4
I could not find any way of controlling my weight long term.
My husband and I split up in 2018. At the beginning of 2019 for some reason I began to lose weight again, got down to 12st 5lbs and I was pretty happy with that but was pursuing more loss actively. Weight loss stopped again probably around July/Augustw last yearand gradually rose no matter what I did, or how little I ate. It was at this point when I was still away in Stoke that I went to see this GP. He also told me that I should be 'grazing' through the day by the way, and showed me his box of healthy snacks that he ate himself. I was just stunned I think.
You begin to lose the will to live don't you? I did certainly.
Anyway, back home again in North Wales on March 3rd this year. I was still gaining very slowly and weight was 13st 7 lbs by then.
Up a bit, down a bit still, generally rising. I had very few clothes that fit me, because as I had lost weight I had donated everything to charity shops, so I have a very limited wardrobe.
Corona arrived. My weight battle continued.
Then one morning I noticed that my weight see-saw seemed to have stopped. I was 13st 7lbs most days, strange, I usually went up or down by at least 1lb daily.
The next day,
28/4/20 I was still showing 13st 7lb 0oz.
I began to take more notice. I would weigh myself daily and record it as well as exactly what I was eating.
I had given up dairy when I was in Stoke, gave up my coffee tor tea, no milk, was eating vegan, no oil, occasional soy only, no high carbs bread, potato, rice etc but still hadn't lost weight. I had decided at the beginning of April that I would revert to a more 'normal' diet for me. Still no dairy, but occasional seafood, I even bought a small wholemeal loaf which sat in the freezer goading me whenever I opened the lid! How sad is that?
On 29/3/20 plus 4oz - 13.7.4oz
I began to weigh everything I put into my mouth and continue with my diary and meticulous recording of calories. Nothing unusual, I recently threw out many years worth of diaries which I have been keeping sometimes meticulously, sometimes less meticulously, since I have been trying to get back to a size that I can live with again.
30/4/20 - 6Not Weighed I was scared to death of getting on the scales!!
1/5/20 - 13.6.4oz And I began my graph, which I have used before - think of the graphs that we see daily in the daily coronavirus updates. If they are level and not climbing, those lines are good news. Mine had gone ever so slightly downwards.
2/5/20 13.6.0oz Again??????????????????
3/5/20 13.5.4oz ?????????????
Am I dreaming? If so I don't want to wake up! Going mad today, had a salad sandwich using my little loaf which had been taunting me for so long.
4/5/20 13.5.0 13stones and 5 lbs zero ounces!!!! OMG
Now I have been puzzling - why this is happening. The only thing different is that I am recording calories more carefully, between 800 - 1,100 max I set myself.
Then I went to look at my thyroxine. I have had various makes of thyroxine over the years and to be honest, I had wiped thyroxine out of my mind for many years. It was too upsetting to continually keep trying to work it all out, try this, try that. I seemed to be destined to be very large. Everyone, family, GP's, hospital, husband, everyone thought I was crackers, I suppose they still do.
I just took the tablets and tried to find something else to think about, to fill my mind with.
I looked at my thyroxine and it is a new one on me. It is Accord. I don't ever remember taking Accord before. That doesn't necessarily mean that I have never used it before, but I didn't recognise the name of Accord.
The first thing I did - after I had written my weight down and filled in my graph of course - was to ring the Chemist and ask if they could please arrange for me to have Accord thyroxine only in future? I explained why.
I was told that it is difficult at the moment to be able to guarantee that I can have one particular make of any drug, because at the moment they had no control over what brands came in any way, but that they would save 2 months supply for me of the Accord thyroxine, which is all that they have left of that batch of thyroxine.
I know that Teva doesn't work well for everyone, I have heard the stories, but I never saw any change in my life when I had different brands of thyroxine regularly. I assumed that the brand didn't matter as far as I was concerned, I never noticed any difference. I never checked what brand I was using previously when I had had success in losing weight, it never occurred to me when I lost that 3 stones in 2012, or what I was taking in 2019 either!
How on earth am I going to carry on getting the Accord brand in future, if it does carry on and I really do seem to do well on it? Because I am not daft, I know that 3 or 4 swallows - ie days of losing - don't make a summer, I might be wrong, but I have had a weight lifted from my shoulders ever so slightly. And I have also eaten 2 small rounds of wholemeal bread for God's sake and still the graph line is showing a very satisfying, though very slow, decline!!!!
Happy days!!!!!!!!!
I hope you are all well and as pleased with life as I am today. Got to go & get gardening now everyone!