Sorry for the moaning post, I just need to get it out somewhere.
Oh God I'm so tired. I'm SO TIRED. I'm at work at the moment and I feel like I could go to sleep right now and have felt like this for the past 6 weeks (since levo increased from 50 to 75mg). It's like a permanent chant in my head - "I'msotiredI'msotiredI'msotired" and I'm trying to just push through and keep going at work. If I can get to the end of the day then I can go home to bed and if I can just do that 5 times in a row then I can sleep for a whole weekend before i try to do the whole thing again.
My next blood test is this Friday and I literally cannot wait - maybe they'll increase my levo and maybe I'll feel better. I had 2 days last week when I wasn't tired and it felt like bursting through the surface of water and taking a big gasping breath before going under again.
I've got a meeting with my boss tomorrow to discuss my contract (it ends in April and I'm hoping it will be extended) but I'm worried that they won't because they can't rely on me. I talked to my line manager a few weeks ago about how rough I was feeling and she expressed concern at putting me on a new project as she didn't think I could manage. I can't afford not to work so I've not mentioned feeling ill since then and am telling people that I'm fine and actually feeling better. I hate being dishonest but I can't imagine how I would cope with losing my job, I love it.
I've just been diagnosed with a mild leaking heart valve as well which isn't helping matters - it also causes fatigue, headaches, fainting etc all of which I could really do without.
I'm sorry to complain, i try to usually stay positive as although Hashi's is rubbish it could always be worse and I try to stay grateful that it isn't. But today is a tired day and I just need to rant.