Sorry to post this but I'm at home crying on my own feeling very afraid.
I've been on 25mg thyroxine for almost 5 weeks. My tsh had been rising for a yest. Last month it was 9.28. (0.27-4.2) and ft4 15.7 (12-22). My gp finally agreed to try thyroxine, reluctantly.
I've been feeling much brighter and far less crash days. Throughout this I've had awful cfs type crashes where I feel drained and weak. It was what led me to the gp and he ran bloods last summer. The crashes had gone from almost every day to just 1 day a week maybe but in the last 2 weeks I'd not crashed and felt great. I'd gone vegan and felt so good. I was so happy. I felt exhausted Monday and was very anxious all day because I was scared I was crashing again. It passed and yesterday I felt good. Silly me I did alot; hoovering all the house plus lots of other housework. I felt tired last night so settled early. I woke just before 7am today and felt heavy in my eyes and tired. I know when I wake like that it'll be a tired day. I had a shower then afterwards felt very weak all over and felt faint. Whether it was anxiety as I suffer terribly since being poorly; I don't know but I felt weak all over, and felt my head all woozy and like I'd faint my mouth was so dry too so I lay on my bed drinking water and let it pass. My heart started racing and I felt adrenaline pumping. I was terrified. It could have been anxiety but I was so scared I was going to faint as I felt so weak and thirsty. I then knew I had to take the children to school and couldn't stop crying.
We've booked a caravan holiday for next week with the kids. Not far from home. I wasn't going to let them down and since feeling better thought I'd do it ok as long as I rest when possible. Well this morning sent me into panic and I've not stopped crying since. Terrified I won't be able to take them on Monday, scared that this wasn't an anxiety attack and will I end up in hospital, will I have to see gp ..... loads of frightening what if thoughts. Plus I'm agoraphobic since being ill but recently been working on it and getting out and about more but I still am terrified of needing to go the doctors or hospital. My hubby thinks thsts why I felt so bad this morning as I panicked but I never panic like that these days, I only usually panic if I feel weak and poorly which I've not felt for a while. So I'm feeling afraid of how I felt this morning. I still feel weak in my body and afraid, my anxiety is running rife afraid I'm ill. I'm at home resting and can't stop crying. Scared of what that was and whether I will let my children down next week. I was so excited for the holiday, we all deserve a break so much after all we've been through these last 7 months and nor this happens and sparks my anxiety again just when I felt hopeful life was getting easier.
I'm very anxious so I'm sorry I've posted. I'm just sobbing. I don't have a mum to call or family as I don't see them so I'm very upset crying by myself.
No need to reply maybe I just had to get this out of my head.