I feel very afraid to keep asking the Dr for help. I first started to ask about the possibility of thyroid issues back in 2010.
I am sure that I have caused a lot of the problems myself (not anorexic, but have many many issues with food and my usual self-punishment of choice would be to stop eating.....) and don't doubt that my records show this too. At that time, I saw a General Medicine Consultant and nothing "abnormal was detected - but I have to say that he said that "you won't be anaemic because you eat meat, not like us..." meaning himself and his student. I am a vegetarian, but he never looked into that, or even asked me. One of the later tests showed low Ferritin and he asked my GP to keep an eye on things. They didn't.
After this, they referred me to a Clinical Psychologist, stating in the letter; "DumbBlonde wants physical answers to her problems rather than accepting that she has ongoing mental health issues. (I have yet to see anyone about the "ongoing mental health issues".)
In 2010 - the TFT results were:
TSH - 0.04
T4 - 17.97
T3 - 5.2
TSH - 1.57
T4 - 13.93
T3 - 5.1
By 2012, my cholesterol was on the rise at 6.3 (total) and when I persuaded them to carry out TFTs again (with no T3) they came back:
TSH - 1.59
T4 - 15.1
But this is what was written about me now (on a counselling referral memo):
"She presents recurrently to us with a list of physical symptoms to which she appears to attach undue anxiety. She has an anxious effect and does not always respond well to medical reassurance. She tends to conduct the order of the intervew unless one is really quite assertive."
I didn't see that Dr again (he was reading his own notes off the screen and realised he's slipped up. I later asked for a copy, which they reluctantly gave me) but moved to a different surgery within the group of three, so effectively the same Drs anyway, although I avoid him unless an emergency. Which was a case of frying pan into frying pan.
Since the start of all this, I have gained nearly 30kg, periods have stopped with NO other m/pausal symptoms, my hair is just a disaster and my body temperature on rising is around the 34 deg C mark..
After a supermarket (yes, I know....) health check came back with a cholesterol reading of 7.39, I ran the gauntlet of a Dr visit/request for TFTs again (bearing in mind, the wait for an appointment is usually around 3 weeks and even then, it seems the Dr thinks you have called up to be seen that day), so this time:
TSH - 2.19
T4 - 14.4
The more official cholesterol that was done by the hospital lab (ie, venous rather than finger-prick) -
I think the (yes, very) gradual increase in TSH bothers me - especially tied in with the rise in cholesterol.
It would have been funny were it not so tragic when the pharmacy assistant (easily twice my size, which is 14-ish) wanted to offer me diet an exercise advice....
Speaking of which, apart from my very real issues with food (and mainly, not enough rather than too much), I try to be as active as the weather allows - cycling and/or "running" 5 days out of 7 - but it is a real struggle to find the energy - when if I try to eat to give myself some energy, I worry that the weight gain will just run away with itself. I feel as though I am on a knife-edge - and one ot two days of not "exercsing" and I gain everything back - if I had even lost anything.
I never used to bother about the scales (and I don't go near them now). I trained as an aerobics instructor and was always keen to impress - on myself and anyone who would listen - that the scales don't really matter; how we feel (in out clothes) and body composition are the most important things. But I have zero energy now and am really quite concerned about how out of breath I get.
The last time I saw the Dr (again, someone I had never seen before), HE (important - believe me) did say, rather reluctantly, "Well, I suppose we could check T3" but by then I was feeling a little foolish with my detailed notes, bullet-pointed list (short) of questions and a sort of algorithm for his brushing off my worries - even my textbook "Your thyroid and how to keep it heatlhy" - which he sneered at once he saw that the author left the NHS after a few years.
So I didn't retain that information but the next day went back to hopefully get the blood taken for the T3 test.
The Receptionist didn't believe me so went off to ask him and came back and in front of a waiting room of people, shouted, "No, he's not going to do that test. Make another appointment and come and see another Dr about HRT."
So - before I do that, I wonder if anyone might think that I am wasting my time, after all this....The notes I have read (God knows the content of those I haven't) make me think that I am going to get the brush-off again and I have no idea how to handle it.
This was mainly a rant so I do apologise for such a long story. I suppose this is no wonder the Drs are fed up of me.