Dear Doctor, how do you sleep at night ?
Why am I being punished ? I didn't ask for this, I just woke up one day in this nightmare. I don't smoke, do drugs or drink to excess (don't touch the stuff now). I've always been good, never stolen and never answered you back or questioned you, (but this has changed and I so hate doing it). I rarely if ever swear, although I find myself swearing more and more due to the frustration of my situation. I was a goody two shoes, if I was 5 mins late for school I would panic. I eat healthily; fresh homemade food by my long suffering man, and more than five a day, (although I'm off my food due to the chronic constipation).
I hardly ever saw you before, but in the last few months I have had to seen you at least 6 times, So why don't you believe me when I tell you I feel the worst I have ever felt in my life ? I don't want a high or to run marathons or to bodybuild, I just want to function, to be able to make the bed without having to recover for the rest of the day, to not have to wear my hat, scarf and coat in the house with the heating on 22 degrees C. to be able to climb upstairs without any aches and stiffness and not look at the christmas decorations at the top of the landing for the 100th time, thinking I might be able to get them up into the loft today, but then look up at the hatch and feel the enormity of it seems like climbing Mount Everest, . . . and then wonder why I had gone upstairs in the first place. When I show you my swollen tongue and neck and chronic sore red raw throat, why do you just sit there bemused ?
Why when you see your patient suffering do you do nothing ?, did you go into this CARING profession to care for your patients or was it just about the money ? maybe you're scared to step outside of the safety of the "Guidelines" in case your rapped on the knuckles, but who set these "guidlines" ? a private organisation ? nothing to do with the NHS or NICE ? so why are you being dictated to ? and why are you just lying down and taking it ?
Oh yes, and the questionable TSH test; to add insult to injury, not to treat or act until it reaches 10 is pure cruelty !!, who thought that one up ? it must have been a real misogynist, his wife must have really hacked him off that day, (not forgetting the minority of males who are suffering too). You wouldn't let a member of your own family, let alone your pet suffer so, in fact you'd probably put snugglebunny down rather than see her go through what I am going through. Surely you doctors care enough to get together and make a stand ? or do you get some sadistic pleasure or fascination out of seeing us suffer ?
Bitter . . . Me ? No thats not in my nature . . well it never used to be !
Enjoy your Horlicks . . Sweet dreams