Hey guys, relatively new to all this and joined this forum tonight. Spent a bit of time reading through some posts and already learnt a lot so thought I'd share my experience and see if there's anything else I could be doing?
I think my story starts in April 2019, I went on a course of Isotretinoin for my severe acne. They are strong with a lot of side effects but in December I finished my course and my skin was amazing. Obviously very happy but 2 weeks later I developed stomach cramping and changes in stool frequency and habit. I usually get ill over the Christmas period so I put it down to a stomach virus or a bug.
Nothing changed and I had a range of symptoms, some days very loose stool, some days very little, started taking buscopan for my cramping which helped a little and then stopped working.
Few 111 out of hours visits with anxiety surrounding it all, blood tests with Coeliac screen came back normal and a recent stool sample came back normal as well so no apparent IBD. Doctor has put it down to IBS but no official diagnosis because of Covid so no one will see me.
Throughout all this my anxiety has exploded, I've always had some sort of toilet anxiety, I have an irrational fear of being sick and associate bowel issues with stomach bugs etc ever since I was a teenager (I'm 32 now).
My current situation: I sleep all night without any issues, I wake up and have a bowel movement without 30 minutes of waking up, some days I feel absolutely fine after that, other days I feel like I've never quite finished going. I suffer with a lot of wind however I'm at the point with my anxiety now that I find myself tensing my buttock muscles and my anus to stop myself from passing gas as I'm scared it will be more than just gas and I am struggling to tell the difference.
Some days I have 2 bowel movements, some days 3 or 4, at the moment they seem quite well formed, normal shape and colour, just a lot more than I would normally pass. Anxiety has reached a point where I cannot feel comfortable at all, sometimes I feel like I need to pass stool when really it's either wind or nothing, I'll rush to the toilet only for nothing to happen. I get anxious leaving the house, me and my girlfriend went for a walk today and had to cut it short because I got anxious that we were nowhere near a toilet and that I might need to go.
I'm a driving instructor and am currently unable to work because of social distancing rules. I'm terrified that when I go back to work I'm going to be an absolute mess because of the toilet anxiety situation.
I've emailed a dietician tonight as my GP wants me to try FODMAP, I found a free app on my phone but I can't get my head around it so think I need guidance. I'm currently taking prescribed Mebervine and activated charcoal tablets although nothing really seems to work.
Sorry for the long post, I'm at a bit of a loss with all this and am really struggling mentally with it at the moment, lockdown isn't helping but I just want some relief from it all. If anyone could recommend anything, is FODMAP a beneficial venture or just to share a similar story I'd be really appreciative. Thank you!