So..i signed up for stoptober- date set. I called the local quit support group and arranged to meet this coming Friday- lord knows I cant do this on my own. I am for all intense and purposes at the cross roads of my life. I find myself hundreds of miles from my kids, sofa surfing at my sisters, unemployed and on antidepressants and without going into too much detail being managed by others for the next year...life can throw many curve balls at the least time you expect it...events that have led me here have accumulated over many years but I remain ever optimistic and look to the future as a second chance to get it right, to get fit, find work and lay roots for my kids to come and visit or know they have a home to go to..I've given up the booze and drugs, so smoking really is the last vice which makes it more difficult to achieve, but having been in the gym for the last two years, shedding 4 stone, smoking really is holding up my fitness, especially with the swimming and tennis, its amazing what swapping bad vices for good vices can do for your strength of mind and physical well being not to mention your self esteem...i do all this for my family and friends who have showed so much love and support over the last 2 years and I will succeed...so is there ever a bad time to give up smoking? I don't think so....
Wish me luck...