Hey everyone.....I've missed you all these last few weeks.
My life this last few weeks has been nothing short of a roller coaster ride in a washing machine. Everything I thought I knew and everything that made me feel safe has been turned upside down.
Those that know me here know my story so I won't go too much into it. To cut that long story short I'll fill you in on where my life is now heading.
After the death of my ex husband I travelled back to my hometown. It's a very small place less than 1500 people in country Victoria. His funeral was extremely sad and very traumatic for my three children (24, 23 and 20). Over 800 people attended which goes to show the type of guy he was. Only 49 years old but was a real community guy. He literally dropped dead in front of my son whilst making a cup of coffee. Goes to show that we really have to make the most of every minute of our lives. My 23 yo son still lives in the family home and so is feeling very lost and insecure now. Anyway because of my recent relationship breakup here in tasmania I feel there's nothing keeping me here and so am moving back to Victoria to be with my son. At least it's a town where I know everyone and I feel safe there. I move back this Friday.
The day my husband died I arrived back in town and was comforting my son on the verandah. He was smoking. Without thinking I reached for one. It didn't seem to matter under the circumstances. But unfortunately I haven't stopped since. I'd gone nearly 3 months without one before all this.
I vow to stop, again, next week. Not sure of the day but I'll let you know. Because I'm gonna need your support all over again.
I'll drop in more often once I'm settled and am looking forward to once again being smoke free. I'm glad to see you are all doing so well and that there are so many new faces on here. It's good to see.
Take care all and I promise to be back on track soon