Hope everyone is keeping well and of course smoke free :). I've been following the dreadful situation with flooding in the UK and I hope that everyone is keeping high and dry! It's still warm and sunny here in tasmania as we move towards autumn.
Well I'm pleased to say that I have gained some control since my last post. For those of you who don't know I am using Champix and have done since the start of December. My quit date was December 23 and besides a slip up New Year's Eve I was pretty smug about my achievements. But by mid January I was really struggling. I'd find myself having a drag of my partner's cigarette a few times a day and then the dreadful demon grabbed hold of me and told me it was okay to have one whole cigarette before bed. I did that a couple of nights and felt dreadfully guilty which led to my last post here on January 25.
WELL ......... I sat back and really looked at what I was doing and why. I decided that I REALLY needed to listen to my body and brain and follow what it was telling me. I continued with the Champix and stopped stressing so much and have faith in what the medication should be doing instead of fighting it! And surprise surprise I am now totally smoke free!!! The real joy is that all cravings have stopped. I can't even imagine putting a cigarette to my lips. The smell of my partner smoking makes me feel ill and I make him scrub himself before he comes to bed. I've even been in situations such as the pub, and parties and still haven't felt an urge to join the smokers. The smell that wafts thru the door makes me feel sick.
I'm not naive enough to call myself a non smoker yet and I'm sure there may come a time when the Nic monster will try and get me again but I'm hoping that if that does occur I will find the strength to fight it!!! I will also ask the doctor for another prescription to really shut those nicotine sensors down!!!!!
So that's where I'm at :). Oooooooooo and on an exciting note I finally got a job!!! Yay for me I start full time employment on 25th February :). It's been a looooong 2 year holiday! Unemployment on the NW coast of tasmania is extremely high so I feel pretty blessed that I get to return to the workforce especially at 50 years of age!
Take care one and all. I promise to drop in more often. Was great catching up on all your posts. There are so many positive stories out there