Had terrible cold in new year and really couldn't stomach the taste.
Forced myself to get my regularly nictotine.
In fact over the past 3 years I could smoke a cigarette in a minute or two. Wanted it but really didn't want it.
Tried gum on Monday 12th January and battled for two weeks to resist driving to the shops to but "just 10". Moved on to patches as well and this has made a difference.
Still need that nictone instant kick , but not missing the tight chest and smell.
There are moments in the day where I could just ask for a cigarette and have that instant satisfaction, but I have worked hard to tell myself that the only satisfaction I will get is 2 minutes of "headrush". Followed by guilt, followed by a horrible taste, followed by "you started smoking again?" followed by taking £10 out of the cashpoint a day and standing in the rain 10 times a day.
I smoked for 12 years gave up for 6 then smoked another 7.
I have a beautiful 4 year old daughter and my guilt is now around why I didn't give up before , which makes me feel depressed, which makes me want to smoke.
That's my story so far and I greatly appreciate this site and the psychological help your are ALL giving me to convert to not smoking.