Well it was a long night and a long day - and sadly no results from the consultation today. Lots of various tests done and repeat X-Ray. The tumour is still there but hasn't grown and he cant see anything else on the chest x ray. The important question as to whether it is cancer or benign wont be answered until this time next week - after the CT scan results are in. The lung nurse specialist could see how upset I was and promised he would phone me personally next Monday after chasing up the scan results. Sooooooo - nothing can be done and I have spent enough energy on the whole thing - I am going to let go of it all - and occupy myself with normal things until I know what I am dealing with. Ollie my cat has the right idea - animals just live one minute at a time - are totally oblivious to the future. He basks in the sun when it appears, and snuggles up on the bed when its cold.
I am going to take a leaf out of his book this week, and just chill out. Thank you all for you on-going support it means so much to me. I was asked if I was still smoking - and proudly said that I wasn't - even though 2/3 months doesn't seem long to the doctor man - it sure is to me. I will keep my posts more upmarket this week in keeping with Ollie's philosophy on life - although he was in an almighty scrap with another cat earlier on!!
By the way - the pic of Ollie was one I took when he was in 'jail' at the animal sactuary before he rescued me!!!