Crying

[Youshallnotpass84]

I had a panic attack this morning whilst in a flashback/blackout. I felt so, so desperate, I ended up calling the Samaritans. I had a huge crying spell on the phone to the understanding lady. I still feel jittery and shaky after crying so much. I can definitely see this unprocessed sadness coming out now. I've never got this far with my complex-ptsd before. I'm hoping it's a turning point however painful it may feel.

[Youshallnotpass84]

I feel so unsafe all over again. I feel reduced to a 14 year old. It's so hard!