Near death experience

[Grannyofmany]

I don't know how to talk about this in fear of upsetting someone. I was at a family reunion. I took very sick. Lost almost half my blood throwing up. Spent days in the hospital. Two days I can't even remember. I've been home almost 2 weeks now and can't sleep. I'm afraid I won't wake up. I live alone. My dr says it's PTSD. That my antidepressant should help. It's not. She wants me to go to therapy. I live in such a small town I have to travel 2 hours one way and being on disability it's hard. I'm so very sorry if I upset anyone. I don't know where to turn. I'm so tired.

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. Please feel free to share whatever you need to share. If you have any concerns, just write Trigger Warning in the title. I am glad you came here for support. Were you already on an antidepressant or did you just start one 2 weeks ago? I ask because it takes longer than 2 weeks to work.

[Grannyofmany in reply to gajh]

I've been on antidepressants all my adult life. I'm now 60. I'm so afraid I'm not going to wake up. I have to be very careful what I take. So many I have allergies to or they aren't good on my one kidney.

[gajh in reply to Grannyofmany]

I know some therapists do online or phone appointments if it is too difficult for you to get to them. I just talk to my therapist on the phone.

[Grannyofmany in reply to gajh]

I will check with my medicare to see if they cover that. They denied my $100000 hospital bill. Said I didn't need that kind of care. So that's on my mind. Thank you for your help.

[gajh in reply to Grannyofmany]

I check in every day, if you want to talk more. I want you to know that I care.