I've been a very independent person all my life. I had to be - I was traumatized by my family when younger and dealt with it by burying myself in books, academics and work. I am asexual and have never been interested in marriage or having children. I am retired now, working part-time, but feel distanced from most people and very lonely. I have friends, but they don't know I feel this way, that when I'm alone I feel abandoned and unloved. They just see me as successful, but I know better.
Because I have been taking care of myself for all these decades, I feel I want someone else to finally take care of me, but don't know how to make this happen. My original family never took care of me emotionally, and I am still suffering from that. I don't want to go through the end of my life feeling this way, but I don't who to turn to to help me with this.
Any comments from this community? Does anyone know a good therapist to help with PTSD who will work with me online?
Thank you .