I'm worn out with worry, guilt , paranoia and an all pervading negativity which repels people from me and fuels abusive behavior towards me.It's bad enough that all the bullying and parental abuse ruined my childhood and any possible success as an adult.
It just hasn't stopped!!!!
God sees what's going on and does nothing. I'm told he does everything in his own time. I DONT HAVE ANY MORE TIME.
I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but please know that your kindness towards me has meant a lot. Life can be so hard - I simply wanted to share something positive with you. I hope this helps in some small way. I'm here if you need to talk 💛
Thank you so much HaBeBe. I wish I would be able to connect with people like you in the outside sphere...
I feel the same way! I haven't made ANY friends since I moved. It may be partially because I no longer live in a small city where I can easily walk around, have access to parks, libraries etc. I would even talk to strangers because I really enjoy hearing unique stories. I feel so disconnected these days. I've never engaged in social media. I recently attended a free "group therapy" and I was pleasantly surprised by how accepting people were. It was a very eclectic group of individuals which was cool too. My transportation situation is unreliable, otherwise I'd regularly attend. They also offer monthly free "art therapy" classes which I'd love to try. I'm no artist but it seems like a good way to get out of the house and meet people like myself. I would recommend giving support groups/group therapy a try if you have access to one in your area. I was very hesitant and skeptical at first but I'm glad I at least explored this option.
I have looked into group therapy. One place wants me to sign an agreement electronically . Im afraid of that dont trust technology.
ask if you can sign it in person... most places do that if they know you are old. My bank for example. They asked me to sign something electronically. I don't even know how. I told him that and he offered me an appointment. If it is something that you want to do, I would check into it.
I did. Have to fill out forms and mail them. Gotta get new ink cartridge for printer.
yeah, and how much is that cartidge gonna cost? Like everyone has money for that! Some people just don't think. And when and if you have the money... you gotta go deal with people to buy it (really hard for me), or buy it online and be around for the delivery (and get stressed that way). Again.... some people just don't think.
Victims of domestic violence do not bring violence upon themselves.
I understand about God’s timing. I ask God the same thing when am I going to be healed. You are not alone in your pain.
