There's not much to say. I am tired of feeling it, dreaming it, living it. So long now.
A very sick man came to my family home. He rapped my mother and cut her. He killed her, then cut parts of her off. He said in court he was .. "fascinated " by how easy it was to cut her.
I returned home, to find her.... Naked, ruined , attacked, cut, abused, on my sisters bed. I was 21 years old and am 63 now. I have never got over it . That's my PTSD.
I am so sad for your loss. I know it must be horrible seeing your mother. I understand seeing images of your mother. I have images of the day my brother killed himself. He shot his head off sitting in a car facing the ocean. I think about this a lot too. So I pray that you will be able to leave the negative images behind you and remember the good times you had with your mother. I do understand that it’s not easy to stop the pain from this tragedy. If you need to talk just text me.
Thank you xx
What an unimaginable way to start your life as a young adult 😢I am so sorry this happened to you. It's completely understandable you still have trauma from this horrific crime. I don't even have words - I simply wanted to offer my support 🌼
Thank you x
Thank you so very much . I don't talk about it much. X
Thank you xxxx
Hope you are having a good day. I know the experiences of your youth haunt you. I pray that they can be erased from your mind. I understand what you’re going through. When I have a flashback I love my dog. It helps some.
I'm so sorry for your pain. I wish it didn't happen. Does anything at all help with flashbacks and nightmares? I too have PTSD. It isn't me being witness. It happened to me. I am unable to go to healthcare because some of it caused by domestic violence. I was assaulted 4 time in my life. 2 strangers and 2 DV situations. Stalked 3 times all different people. Even with police report and witnesses and letters of admission, because some DV related I'm stuck. Invalidation and constant retrauma is the treatment technique here. You run from help. It's supposed to teach a lesson to women I guess. Anyway I'm so sorry. No one deserves what you experienced. I'm here and can offer compassion and understanding.
That's so horrible. I have no words apart from the fact that for some unknown reason some people have too much pain. Please take care and thank you for your support x
I don't think there's a way to stop flashbacks but you can make them less frequent but just listening to music, going for a walk, seeing family or friends. Just trying not to let the atmosphere take you over. See the warning signs and change direction.
DON'T LET THE TUNNEL VISION BECOME REALITY It's hard but possible some of the time
Does anyone else get randomly anxious in some social situations?
Temporomandibular joint dysfunction - I am miserable 
panic disorder while driving 
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