God help me

[PeaceNeed]

I wake up every morning feeling psych awful. Depressed , scared , old and pray ro god for release.

I live in an area close to alot of places where i experienced trauma. All the memories keep flooding back.

Im stuck here with my illness , crooked land lord dependant on my rent from a corrupt company thats in charge of disbursing govmnt money.

I wish i had the courage to exit but my will is weak. Im suffering in silence.

My therapist is a joke. The mental health system made things worse.

Im real sorry if this triggers anyone. I hope the stress kills me and get it over with.

[roses4all]

Really sorry Peace. 1) move; 2) why is your therapist a joke?

[Sheepdawg]

I am certain that many of us can relate to what you are experiencing. I am sorry that you are experiencing such challenges.

One thing that has helped me climb out of the darkness is focusing on helping someone else. If I can not help them financially, I can be there to support them emotionally. The more I focus on helping others, the less I focus on my own troubles.

[HaBeBe7]

I am a 41 year old woman but I can relate to what you feel... A LOT. I moved to an area I NEVER wanted to live in about 3 years ago and my mental health/ entire life has spiraled ( if you're interested in the details, feel free to read my other posts.. ) but I don't have ANY friends or family. I don't have any income either. I want to get help but it's incredibly hard in this state with my situation. Everyday is just surviving/coping because I can't help but feel "my best days are behind me". I keep holding onto the hope that maybe one day I'll be okay. I too, have struggled with the healthcare system and corrupt landlords - it's daunting. I just wanted to offer my support and let you know you are not alone. 🌼

[PeaceNeed in reply to HaBeBe7]

Thank you. I will read ur posts. I wish you well for the future.