Hello!

[Aneveningwithbeverly]

Just wanted to say hi and post a little about my story here in hopes it will help others. After 20+ years of marriage I found my husband was secretly living another life. The details are still very difficult to say "out loud". It's been nearly 3+ years since discovering this...I immediately threw myself into therapy after experiencing 5 months of sleeping 3 hours a day, my hair started falling out, my nails stopped growing and my health was suffering. I became completely manic and unable to comprehend my emotional state. I was diagnosed w PTSD. I've always been "sensitive" but this was next level sh#@. I would shake w tremors while attempting to fall asleep, loud noises caused me panic and sometimes breaking down sobbing uncontrollably. I felt like I was always "on." I felt dispair like I'd never experienced, and this emptiness. I became completely withdrawn even if I was surrounded by people. I felt this real sense of detachment. I no longer trusted anyone or anything. I began drinking just to "cope". Taking high doses of sleeping meds and anti-depressants. The anger I would feel when I thought about how hurt I was took hold of me. I decided I needed to do something to help myself. I got into body building. I had always been athletic and in recent years started my own yoga business but lifting was something I never really invested my time in. Lifting heavy weights made me feel strong, not just physically but emotionally. Fast forward to present day.... here I am on the other side. My PTSD symptoms are manageable and most days are nonexistent for the most part. I only drink socially now and no longer take any medication. I no longer feel like the victim. I really want to help others that are struggling so that is why I'm sharing this. Just know YOU are NOT alone

[Greensoul2]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. You should be so proud of yourself for getting to where you are right now. I hope you keep growing from strength to strength 💪

[Aneveningwithbeverly in reply to Greensoul2]

Thank you very much Greensoul2!!!