Hello everyone

[Riki_]

Hello, I just joined this community to help and walk through my pstd. I'm 19 years old currently, I am forced to an abusive household ever since I was 13, being intensely monitored and manipulated by both of my parents. It started to really dire once in 2019. Having been ostricized by my family with the only member that I was able to love, my grandfather, also leaving me behind to play into my mother's victim act. I was never allowed into talking with anyone even other family members, going outside, in my house I was constantly eaves dropped, couldn't watch anything, was forced to cope with a drunk father holding me hostage, beat by my parents, investigated my phone/computer, forced into a room where my brother didn't let me sleep and also kept stalking me, my pets were struggling in the household, forced to drive my drunk dad home, clean up after them. I had to watch a lot of things down and I don't know who can make up for this damage now that it's settled down, exactly nobody's there for me anymore, I just wish I could get into some private therapy soon, I can't stand sitting with myself with these thoughts screaming in my body and pleading for someone else.

[gajh]

Hello. I am so sorry to hear of your situation. I hope that you are able to get into therapy. I wish you good luck.