We've been on these downward journeys many times but we have always got to a point when we have climbed back up again. This time I don't think we will. Yesterday Colin was very unwell with the temperature sky high, erratic breathing and very anxious. This has happened many times but the difference yesterday was the copious amounts of something he was coughing up. The GP called, said he possibly had a chest infection as his stats were low. He asked C if he wanted antibiotics and he tucked both thumbs in. He has also indicated he doesn't want any more PEG feed so I'm just giving water. I gave him a small dose of morphine and it calmed him down the rest of the day. Hospice at home are calling in daily from now on so I know I will be well supported.
For those of you who pray, I would value prayers for a quick and peaceful passing. Colin is certain of what is to come so has no fear of his final destination, it's the journey he was anxious about. For those who don't pray, I would value your thoughts. It could still be some time as his heart is strong. I really can't believe we were both enjoying the sun in Hastings on Sunday. Oh how things can change.