I can't reply to each and every one of you, thought writing another post would be easier!
Thank you all so much. If ever there was a time that I needed your support, it was yesterday and you were all there, with your rope ladders! Today is another day. Still feeling extremely uptight, S and Ollie are both still being shouted out, but I think I am slightly calmer. The tears have dried up, so that's progress! I did sleep last night, but that may have been the wine consumed. The anti depressants will take a couple of weeks to kick in properly. Hopefully my boys can hang in there that long!
We - me, are in an awful situation, watching our loved ones suffer with this evil disease and no matter what help is offered, given, no matter what support we all receive, at the end of the day, we are all alone! The one person I need is longer at home, that I just can't come to terms with. Don't suppose I ever will! Only YOU understand that, feel that. I know lots of people go through some very unpleasant illnesses and caring is caring, no matter what's wrong, but PSP seems to have that added extra bite! Again, nobody else can appreciate!
Some of you said some very kind words about my support for them, I thank you. But as you can see, I don't take any of my own advice. I am trying to though. I have finally been offered a sitter. Resent like mad the cost, £70 for 4 hours, but I will accept it. I have agreed to try it for a month and hope the cost does not grate too much. If it does, then I'll get carers in to actually take care of S in the morning. The convene has not arrived, so got to wait until next week now.
The good news is, I have my son and his wife and my granddaughter coming for the weekend. I know a certain young lady will fall in love in the minute she sets her eyes on Ollie! I have set her the task of house training him. At least with three more sets of eyes on the "sweet" thing, we may catch the little b£&@&£& in the act, which may improve things a bit!!!
Honestly guys, you saved me last night, don't worry I was not about to do anything daft, but I get into a "bit" of a state and your support and just knowing you were all routing for me, helped so much. It's crazy isn't it, we are all total strangers, yet the love I felt from your posts to me was enormous!!!
Lots of love