What can I say? Totally overwhelmed by the response to my previous post. Thought it would be easier to send this post, hoping you all will read it!
Yesterday was hard, I felt a failure, I had wasted precious time, feeling sorry for myself. I was not in control, just floundering around. I never use to be like this, I never thought I was a control freak, perhaps, I was never allowed to be! Now, I have to know and be in control of everything. It's so tiring and certainly not relaxing.
Thank you all for your kind and wise words. I do KNOW what I should be doing, but sometimes to just impossible to actually do it. Peter Jones - don't worry, when I said, "is it worth it." I meant having a carer come in!!! Although I do fully understand, when couples decide to end their lives together!
Next week, I will plan my time off. I will set the alarm on my phone, (if I have remembered to charge the damn thing!) My main problem for a lot of things I could do, is traffic. I live right by the M5, which becomes a car park on Fridays, so all the local roads are taken over by rat runners!!! Still I will overcome, don't know how, but I WILL,!!!
Thank you all again for your support. I still can't get my head around how good this site is and full of such wonderful people. Another soul saved to be able to fight PSP today!
Lots of love and thanks