Good Morning Everyone
I am feeling so down at the moment and thought it might help to get everything off my chest.
I have Seropositive RA which I control with 2 x 5mg Prednisolone twice daily as any other Rheumy medication makes me very sick. I also have Osteoporosis of the spine and hip. I have been prescribed Alendronic Acid, which also makes me very sick. I have a minor bulging disc, 3 old fractures of the spine and Osteoarthritis in 3 vertabrae and hips and pelvis. I am taking 2 x 10mg Zomorph twice a day and 2 x 500mg Paracetamol 3 times a day. These control the pain when I am sitting down, but I constantly feel sick, dizzy and drowsy. Not sure what's worse, the pain or the cure! I read a lot of books on my kindle which is a form of escapism as I can really get into the characters. As soon as I finish a book I feel a dreadful sense of loss, which is not normal. It's the same with TV programmes. Even with the medication, I cannot stand or walk about for more than a couple of minutes before the pain sets in. I am in the process of buying an electric wheelchair so that I can at least get out and about. I haven't left the house in over a month. I am on a six month contract at work with 4 months to go. They have been brilliant. They allow me to work from home. I wake up at 5am and there's no chance of getting back to sleep. I then start work at 6am. It;s only when I have taken my medication that I go downhill with the various side effects, and can't function too well. Work really helps as at the end of the day I feel a huge sense of achievement and it's the only time I feel as though I'm me. The only downside from working at home is that I can't do housework and my house looks like a squat. I have a 27 year old son who treats the place like a hotel and just keeps adding to the mess. He never does anything for me and in fact goes out of his way to make things difficult for me. I want to get a cleaner, but what's the point of paying out money when he's just going to mess it all up again. My sister came over a few weeks ago to clean my house and moaned the whole time about the mess the house was in her exact comments were ''you can't let it get in this state again''. Anyway, it feels good to get this off my chest xx