I am a woman in my middle years. About a month ago I had a horrible discharge from my vagina. I also had a sensation in the vagina of flatulence. I went to the sexually transmitted disease department, was examined and told there was nothing there, no bacteria. I was perplexed. Like a lot of things they can come and go and I hoped this complaint would disappear. It did and I was so happy everthing was back to normal. The problem reared its ugly head again when I was away for a break but this time it was a lot worse and stressful, and even before the above symptoms I was in a bad mood that got worse. I came home. I was also having different stools when I went to the toilet. I went to the doctor as soon as I could but did manage to look up my symptoms on the internet. It looked like I have a hole made from the recturm to the vagina. The doctor was not pleased but said have an exam with a lady doctor with a nurse present. I went to see the lady doctor three days later and wanted to know first if she could put me on antidepressants as I was feeling horribly depressed by the condition that had got worse. She said no and it had nothing to do with her but it was up to the psychiatrist I was going to see in six months time. At the same time she said my latest condition was of the mind, that I was dillusional but she still looked as if she would examine me. I said what are you looking for and she was reluctant to tell me. I did read before this interview that doctors do not always find something wrong but there is a problem and other tests can follow. I did not like the way she was. Everyone should be entitled to an unbiased exam. She went on and on about this drug I had been recommended to take from the psychiatry department and that I should take that. She also said I had been into the doctors with lice but that was dillusional because they could not see any. I was unhappy about this because the doctor I saw did not examine me properly for lice anyway. I felt that I did have lice and it took months to clear. These medical conditions are pretty horrible. As far as hallucinations go I was recently prescribed morphine that I felt gave me bodily sensations like lice but I pulled through without asking for help or taking medication. So now I am at home. I have another appointment with a doctor and nurse but not until early March. I feel as if I am fighting an infection all the time. I phoned the surgery today for an earlier appointment for antibiotics and the receptionist said call tomorrow morning. There was no doctor to phone me. I do have a normal appointment but not till next Tuesday. As I am ill every minute of the day. I Live on my own with very little support and not much money, becoming delirous quite often because of the infection. I am pretty well at the end of a rope. I contacted the psychiatry unit but that is rather worrying because they may agree that my complaint is all in the mind. My vagina is very sore and uncomfortable from what is going on and I feel very unwell. Any thoughts? I'm not up to much. I do feel like phoning a rectovaginal surgeon and getting a private consultation but it should come from your doctor. I phoned the psychiatry unit to see if they will fax or write out a prescription for antidepressants but they said no but they did say see them on Friday of this week. Now I am worried about that. Never ending. The original problem is leaking liquid faecus from the vagina because I feel a hole has been made through the tissue to to rectum. this condition is called rectovagnus fistula and is sore and painful and devastating. It is funny in a way that the doctor i last saw was not concerned about whether I was still taking morphine for pain but was happy to think I was having hallucintations about my latest complaint. No I don't want to be ill all the time far from it.