In 2003 I had an horrific fall and sustained 13 fractured bones. They were 3 in my LV. 1,2 &3 both sides of my pelvis, both sides of my sacrum, my left hip, left forearm, left wrist, my left heel totally smashed, my left ankle and finally my left toe.
I have suffered with Chronic Pain Syndrome ever since and was given morphine for the pain. I kept getting it increased each time my body got used to it, but finally when it got to 240mg daily I decided not to increase the dosage and would supplement myself with Cocodamol
I then had to move home into a bungalow which is purpose built for disabled people. I also had to get a new GP but he was hellbent on getting me off morphine! Don't get me wrong, yes I did want to come off my morphine but he just stopped 20mg without any warning and he never reviewed me once in the 12 weeks it took to cut my morphine intake by half to 120mg daily! At the very least I expected him to say "well done"; but that obviously was me expecting far too much. I have been taking morphine for 13 years and what my GP's attitude towards me was unsympathetic, he never did any regular check ups either which I thought was the way it should of been done. I also felt he wasn't providing me any support net, what I mean by this is if my chronic pain continues, which it has then why is my GP not suggesting an alternate strong pain killing medication! I am fully aware the body has it's own natural opioids but for whatever reason mine has not yet kicked in, maybe it will never kick in?? I don't understand why or how the functions in my body doesn't work but all I do know is I am suffering everyday in chronic pain. I have a whole host of other conditions too! Then on 20th May this year I had a bad fall in my garden, I was taken to hospital and got told I have sustained a Comminuted fracture on my good left leg/ankle! I can't tell you how bad my pain was, it was off the scale! I had to have a cast on for 8 weeks! Also I wasn't allowed to weight bare which made it virtually impossible for me to get around because my disabled right foot was having to take all my weight causing me to be doubled up in pain! The doctor at hospital prescribed me 15mg of Codeine phosphate 2 four times daily which did help with my pain but also made me sleep a lot and as much as I needed to, I didn't go by the recommended dose due to it's addictive nature I took 2 twice daily instead. I went to the fracture clinic after my 8 weeks of wearing my cast. I was x-rayed and later the doctor told me my fractures were very nasty and it will take at least 6 months to get better. My cast was removed and I was given an orphopeadic boot to wear. I was told I was to wear it 4 weeks and also given an exercise instruction sheet and told to do these daily. On the 2nd week wearing my orphopeadic boot I had noticed a swelling on the site of my metatarsals. On the 3rd week my request for a repeat prescription for Codeine phosphate tablets was refused by my GP! WHAT! Are you kidding me?? I rang and demanded why he had refused me my pain medication. His reason was because they were addictive and then he suggested I use paracetamol!!! I was livid because they did t even touch the sides and also he hadn't offered me a prescription, he expected me to purchase them when I can't even get up unaided to go to my bathroom!!!
At the end of my 4th week I attended the fracture clinic. I explained to the doctor how I had a painful swelling over my metatarsals, he sent me for an x-ray. When I got back he touched my toe and asked if it hurt to which I replied no. He then stood up straight looking very confused. I told him it wasn't my toe that hurt it was further up my foot, it's my metatarsals, I then asked what were my x-ray results? He told me he could see a very fine line on my toe, he then said you will have to wear your orphopeadic boot another 4 weeks - OMG! I then told the doctor how my GP has refused my prescription request for my codeine phosphate - he told me all he could do on that front was to write to my GP asking him to review your medication for pain. I am now in my 6th week of wearing my orphopeadic boot and haven't heard a thing from my GP, I think it's disgraceful! Also the swelling around my metatarsals became much, much worse because when I woke up this morning, my entire right foot had blown up like a balloon!!!
I haven't rang my GP he who hasn't even darkened my door in the 14 weeks since I fractured it, I didn't ring the hospital either - why?? It's because I am being made to feel worthless and not believed when I tell all concerned about how much chronic pain I am in right now! Instead my neighbour has been and got me some Cocodamol from my local chemist. She asked the pharmacist their advice on my very badly swollen foot. I got more sense from the pharmacist than my own GP and hospital doctor who said - the reason for the swelling is because the soft tissue is protecting a potentially broken bone, I was to rest my foot on cushions above the level of my heart and apply ice packs to my foot, if it is still swollen after 48 hours then I am to take myself to hospital.
I've got another 26 hours to go. What gets me so depressed is not being believed when I am in this much pain, surely I have a right to be believed - it shouldn't have to be this difficult to get pain relief should it?
Thank you for taking the time to read my post, it means a lot to me😄 Marie