After 3 admissions and aborted surgeries due to low white count/neutrophils... It finally went ahead last Thursday. Prior to surgery my CA125 went down to normal range (in 3 chemos) and scan showed excellent response. My surgeon was convinced that I wouldnt need anything more than the usual debulking. Imagine my horror to wake up to a stoma, just didn't see it coming. It was apparently hiding in my transcending colon and adhered to my bladder. I'm very grateful to my surgeon for removing every bit of disease but I've had to pay a price. I know I had no choice but it's just another complete "bug&er to go with the rest. Just caught site of myself in mirror on the landing mirror...... I look bloody awful!!!
It's hard to imagine pain and nausea ever being under control but I know it will. Why do we rush ourselves?