OK. Me again. Still feeling weepy and thinking out loud online which is probably not a good idea. I've hardly shed a tear since last February.
I'm sorry if I offended anyone in my last post. I didn't mean to be smug or patronising or pitying ... and I'm so sorry if it came across like that.
I actually think ... and I'm not sure how this works or if it's right ... that I feel guilty as well as relieved. Is it possible to have a guilt at feeling so lightly brushed by this disease?
Tomorrow I'm going to try to go back to my 'before OC life' and see everyone again. Maybe getting 'back to normal' is more emotional than hospital stuff? Much love.