This is really testing me!!

[Katz101]

Hey people,

I really need to share this one, because the bully is loving this one!! Despite my OCD stress being high I've been getting all my health worries sorted, and it's really embracing the level of anxiety that's been visual to everyone!! I nearly fainted getting my tooth taken out!! because I've been having problems with my gums....and I don't need to tell you what my bully had me believing!!! so I've been getting everything seen to, all okay, but part from my major one worry, my stomach!!! And I feel sick writing this, like I'm worried by writing it it'll come true!!! I'm getting test done to see if I'm celiac!! I've done really well to reach a level of calm, but the call from the doctors yesterday, has set me sky high!! Well it was the receptionist that called and said, the doctor has your results, and she says that one of your plates is high, and she's told me to tell you not to worry...... And I said what does that mean, she replied with I don't know, but you've to come back in 6 weeks for another blood test, I can't keep calm for another 6 weeks!!! My head is loving this. It was horrible trying to keep calm in my voice!! She said she would get the doctor to call me, the doctor is calling me today.

I'll tell you my core concern is that I have stomach cancer!!!! this one has haunted me for years, I'm avoiding looking this up on the internet, and I'm trying to keep from freaking out.

My partner has reassured me if there was concern I would have been in straight away!!!

I'm sharing all this and it's rawness because this is the kinda stuff that fuels my OCD bully, and it's bullying me pretty bad, I've got ear ache, head ache and palpitations, this is me at rock bottom.

Realty is, this result is good, it means I have a reason for this pain and discomfort, and if I was to fall really ill, it would be caught early, and maybe I'm not celiac, and I have some food group intolerances....

Sorry about all this, I needed to reach out. Xx