Low blood sodium again. I was on my way back to my bedroom from the kitchen when all of a sudden I felt like the world dropped down a hole in front of me. I tried to get to my room, but passed out before I made it. I was found face-down with my arms beside me, and dh thought I'd had a seizure. I came round quite soon, which is not normal for a seizure, but since I was dh and I thought it would be safe to get me to bed. It wasn't. As soon as I got vertical I collapsed, then again. He was calling 911 when I came to.
My blood sodium was at 31, when normal runs around 131. They put me on saline, but raised the level too quickly, which affects the brain (yay). Luckily the hospitalist knew the nephrologist, who adjusted my salts and water intake carefully. This, btw, is an annoying process that included measuring my urine output.
As that improved it became clear that I've sustained another (expletive expletive expletive) concussion. I'm using a walker until I stop wobbling, which means I can't use my white cane. Now I really *feel* blind.
The final conclusion was that I'd gotten very dehydrated, perhaps from too much coffee and too little food, I don't know. So now I have the sodium version of diabetes. I can't get too thirsty because that drops blood sodium, but I can't drink too much, either.
Spring is coming, so the weather is changeable as it can be. My fibro is going nuts, my hands feel like they've been dipped in hot glue, and I....
I am too tired to fight, today. MTX was yesterday, rain today. I give up. Don't be alarmed, I only give up for today. Beloved brought Thai food for me, and he and I are going to watch a movie together. Assuming I can. I'm not online a lot because screens hurt my head after too long, just like light and sound and every bloody thing the world can come up with. With pain and the concussion comes PTSD flashbacks and nightmares, and on Monday I'm going to seek some counselling for that. For today, I give. I am going to take my meds for the evening and try my damnedest to remember that I am resilient, I can't help but think that somewhere there is someone who thinks this is hilarious, and just keeps piling the crap on. I'm so weary.