Sorry for the long post...
I have AS and am currently on Enbrel which has been a godsend painwise. I still suffer fatigue and the exhaustion is hard to manage.
I am a Detective on a child abuse unit which is very demanding. For the most part I juggle my health issues well and sustain full time work will low absence levels. I also work as much overtime as I possibly can. Sadly I lost my dad 3 months ago and my partner lost her nana 10 days ago. I was already exhausted but have kept going.
Last week a job came in and I asked not to be kept on because I needed to be at home for my partner and additionally I was struggling myself. This was ignored and over the following 4 days I worked 15 hours overtime. On the third day because I had again asked not to be kept on my DI made a point of only keeping me on to complete a task resulting in being 4 hours later off. I have since spoke to her about this and she said she didn't have any awareness of my medical condition and apologised for her action. My line manager was working alongside her and hadn't mentioned the reasons why I didn't want to stay on only telling her I wasn't a team player.
She has now suggested that maybe I am not up to the job and should consider an alternative role.
My partner has also given me an ultimatum stating she is fed up of my job coming first, she wants me to leave totally or we split as she says I'm stressed and shattered and never there. I am the main wage earner so I am now worrying about all this and seem to be struggling with what I assume is anxiety- (pain in chest, fluttering in chest, nausea) and seem to fear of going into work tomorrow and also am hardly sleeping all of which are making me even more tired!!
Do I just walk away from it all, I've even had dark thoughts as I can't see a solution that will work on every level?