I've never posted on here before, but have read several posts and found them really helpful. On this occasion its me who could do with a little help or advice from other RA sufferers in the same position.
I have had RA for 3 years now, work full time as a higher level teaching assistant in a primary school, and was finding this increasingly difficult due to having to change classes every half day to teach a different year group. It all came to a head on 8th October when I collapsed in school and was taken to hospital in an ambulance. Pure exhaustion! On returning to work a couple of days later I approached the Head Teacher for support, asking if she could consider the option of me reducing my hours to part time maybe 3 days. On hearing this she attacked me with words telling me I wasn't the same person she had interviewed, and that I wasn't good at behaviour management! instead of her offering me support this is what I was faced with. I came out of the meeting feeling utterly distraught and this had a massive impact on my confidence and self worth! I had never been approached previously regarding my performance at work!
The following day my doctor signed me off work initially for 6 weeks, but this has been ongoing and I am still signed off now. I have become severely depressed and anxious, and having a lot of numbness in my right arm (this is under investigation by my Rheumatologist and I have just had an MRI scan). I'm currently on a CBT programme and taking anti depressants, but im finding it really difficult to go out of the house, and totally avoid any social situations. I haven't even been in a shop since October!!
I have my union involved who are very supportive, and my school referred me to their Occupational Health. Even though I am still signed off until at least end Of January I was called to a meeting in school yesterday. This was between the Head, HR, myself and the union rep, and I found this so difficult. I had to take Diazepam to get me through the meeting, but it was awful and I am absolutely sure that the Head Teacher is trying to get rid of me. She is saying that they can only make adjustments for me in the short term, but cant accommodate me in the long term?!!! I have another meeting with them next week to discuss further but The Head was talking about Disciplinary action due to my absences and the effect it was having on the school. (I have worked in school for 10 years now and my performance or attendance have NEVER been an issue previously).
I really don't know where to go with this, I don't have the energy to fight my case, I am physically sick with worry and just want to be left alone to get better. My husband wants me to hand in my notice, but my Union Rep says I shouldn't do this as it wont look good if I apply for another job!
I feel so ill, so very low and depressed about the whole situation, and really don't know where I should go from here. Can any of you wonderful people out there help me?
Thanking you in anticipation,