I've been working hard to stay more positive of late, but I'm having a bit of a rough day. I'm pretty flared up, though the Cymbalta I take for depression seems to be getting between me and a great deal of the pain, which is nifty. Sometimes, though, this just feels like too much. Not just the RD, it's having one more damn thing to deal with. I'm weary of it. It's the day after mtx for me, so I usually expect to feel like crap, but I'm struggling emotionally today. I still believe that I can find purpose in the events of my life - that's largely how I've coped with everything else. It's just that I've been fighting one illness or another for pretty much my whole life. I think I give myself permission to not be okay today. I'm going to take some pain relief, then cuddle up on the couch with hubby and watch tv. I know I'll feel better tomorrow, and after that I have another busy week ahead. Today, I will wrap myself up in comfort and just get through.