It has been several weeks since I even looked here to see what is happening with all of you...I simply have been in survival mode. Newly diagnosed in September 12 started MTX in December, never got further than first base, my liver was not very happy and felt so unwell most of the time despite converting to subcutaneous ...changed to Sulphasalazine, got to max dose and the side effects for me just made my quality of life horrible and really the RA seemed to continuing its rampage despite IV steroids and a plethora of pain meds. Last Friday, saw my consultant, after discussion decision made to move onto biologics......would need to wait for however for acceptance from the health board.. with a possible wait of 12 months. Can you imagine my delight when yesterday my rheum.nurse called and asked me to come see her today!! Nearly squealed with delight, would have jumped up and down and done a dance if I was able, cried and laughed......even the knife pain stabbing in my joints could not take away from my delight. Today, discussed three options, what do I know about which is the best, yes I have read some about each option but I still do not have the knowledge based on experience- which do you think I should take? Simponi is the one and so am now waiting patiently for the homecare team to get in touch.....side effects, risks, yes it scares me a little, maybe more than that if I am honest, but sitting, no laying here tonight, my hands can hardly function because of the pain( thank goodness for IPad that does not require any pressure for my fingers) and the hope of being able to return to a normal unrestricted pain free life far outweighs everything else. Will be able to enjoy walking again, will carry my bag without actually having to consider everything and how heavy it is, and will be able to use my hand to carry rather than my shoulder. Will be able to wear high heels again! Actually enjoy driving again, bake and not be so sore afterwards that actually it is no longer any fun.....so many things I look forward to .....the one thing that I look forward to most? someone giving me a hug without me being terrified that I am going to be in so much pain.......
Wonder what everyone else misses so much....
Has anyone else been prescribed Simponi?
Finally, I know I am so blessed to have a fantastic rheum.team- they are such a support and I love the fact I do not need to explain anything - they simply know by the way I hobble into the room- cannot wait to run into the clinic in three months
I do so hope all of you are keeping as well as you can and that with the advent of spring we can look forward to an easier few months
Katie x