1Year 3Months 0Weeks 1Day1Hour 43Mins 42Secs Since Hercu Quit Smoking
It is so nice to live this new quality life and though it necessary to share with all the quitters, should the quit be a few hours or years but this is how I feel life should be...
I started my journey on Champix came down from 60 per day to 3 on day ten and stopped on day 12...I had the nausea and insomnia but pushed through and completed the whole 12 weeks... and Oh Boy the day after I stopped Champix heavens came crushing down on me once again as it was on day 3 to 7 of my quit.. That total Zombification... That feeling of rats gnawing on your muscles and then just to make sure that you suffer enough pisses on your brain... my body felt as if was used as the battering ram to break open the door to my wanted freedom .....That misty feeling.... that floating feeling the moment you get off from a rollercoaster ride...walk around for days where your vision is not following your head turn but lag behind like a cars head lights around a sharp corner... I cried and mourned the loss of my dearest friend , which I have met in the trenches of the border war we were fighting as 18 year old boys...My companion in darkness, my warmth in the cold... my relaxation when tensed...Meu Amigo...Gone.......!
But always in my mind remembering that day staring at my chest X rays and the GP mumbling something of COPD in the back ground and I saw that vision of the old myself sitting on a garden bench kept upright with pillows with a huge oxygen tank besides me .... Me the Dutch basketball player, provincial and National...for twenty five years continuous... The keen Kayak angler ..Paddling 15 km per day on the ocean with 3 meter swells... It can’t and won’t be... So I remained quit....and embraced this quit and decided to attack and not to defend...
On this forum I met an Australian Nurse... Mellie.. and she introduced me to the Dopamine idea and up to this day I believed that it was the biggest contribution to my up to date success .. If I am allowed to call it a success.. For me it is victory !!!! I followed Mellie’s recommendations and supplemented with Herbal supplements and got the Dopamine and Serotonin flowing... I acknowledged the fact that my brain is altered by years of battering with chemicals.. and knew the only way to get out of this entrapment was to supplement correctly...and it worked for me....and believed it to be the main player in my resurrection....
The smoke free life opened itself to me with a passion.. Maybe because I wanted it so much.. The return of taste and smell...Good and bad... I always thought my wife is over excoriating with that comments after my first visit to the bathroom .. But Geepers.. I experienced it first hand...it smells bad !!!!... For a man touching 60 the improved blood flow meant the world....My life quality improved..my bank balance improved ...I bought my jet ski which was a something I always dreamt of...I started hobbies... Completed projects ..Go for long walks in the plantations... Take Sunday afternoon pedals with my Granddaughters on the dam with the little water available between the crocodiles... I live life and wondered if it would be this good should I still be burning away 60 per day... ???? and I answered myself a zillion times....NEVER...!!!!
I never think of a cigarette anymore in a nice way... I hope that I can enjoy this smoke free life forever and belief that it is really worth it and can promise all the starters: believe in yourself and it become true... Life is good..... actually excellent smoke free....NOPE....!!!
“It's not what we do once in a while that shapes our lives. It's what we do consistently.”
― Anthony Robbins
Back again after failing now using champix.
Started my 8th month smoke free
Month 5 complete, Hello month 6!
mood swings after 4 months
First month done... into month two
