Just been so busy that I haven't been able to log in .....still finding the 5-8pm hurdle really difficult and really snapped at my daughter tonight...so much so that she stropped off and I won't see her until Sunday...just got fed up of walking in the house and plates of food being left everywhere, dirty clothes piled on the floor, clean clothes on the floor, pots, pans just left piled up in the kitchen, spray tan all over the carpet...just lost it...but then feel I should have done this years ago. But still feel really guilty....as when I came in she just came in and gave me a big hug as she could see I was feeling really down. In the week I'm fine during the day...dreading the weekend though...trying to plan to be in places where I couldn't smoke anyway...but there's got to be a time when I just have to face the demons and be at home, but not smoking.
Just also wanted to say thanks to other members for being so supportive .....I just keep saying to myself I am happy not smoking ...and when I walk past the smokers huddling outside at work in the freezing cold I actually mean it! and the fact that I don't smell of smoke all the time is a real bonus!