Hello All, I am posting in week 2 rather than month 2 as I did smoke for about 3 days before quitting again last Wednesday at 7pm. I decided to just go it CT and the first week was a piece of cake. day 7,8 and now 9 thought I am thinking about smoking ALOT. I also keep thinking about this really elegant looking ecig I saw in spain on holiday in august....lol I don't know why. At the moment im using the blind faith technique of telling myself 'just wait and see'.
I know it gets better because ive been there. But I keep getting these thoughts of dread and panic especially when I think about doing uni work. Im ok going to work and just going with the flow but deadline and pressure make me freak out. I keep thinking perhaps I have picked the wrong time but then I think well im 9 days in to it now, and as far as quits go this one has been the most symptom free so why flush that down the toilet and smoke for 8 months to perhaps find it really intolerable next time? is it really worth it?
I used to do all my uni work alone as I work best alone.....maybe because I could puff away an type. Now im thinking writing assignments is really triggering at the moment and perhaps I should go to the campus library where you cant smoke anyway to do my work. Might have to break that link. what do you guys think?
I know in time it will get better. I looked at a previous post of mine at the 6 month mark where im happy, im starting to lose weight I gained (so clearly not using food as a crutch any longer) and I sound like a propa ex smoker. Maybe I should just give myself a break and accept its going to take time to be a comfortable non smoker, I mean it will happen or no one would stay quit.