Hello fellow ex smokers,
So here I am day 36. Tiredness, gone, concentration...returning. sense of humor...getting there. So last time I posted I said I was stopping the ecig. I have been unsuccessful in that at the moment. My rationale? Well, currently im on a student placement for my mental health nursing degree, where I spend time in practice learning 'hands on'. It also happens to be my relapse signature, which I only realised on reflection the other day. When I quit cold turkey before, I started using ecig on placement. I then stopped it...restarted ecig on placement again. Then I relapsed on to cigarettes on yes, another placement.
I feel so positive in my current quit that I don't want to push myself especially at a time I know I am vulnerable for set backs. I have 3 weeks left on placement and then I am done for 5 weeks until my next one (which will only be a 3 day a week placement rather than 5). Its hard because although I SOOO wanna stop using the ecig, there is so much pressure on me on these placements to perform as I am judged and marked on my performance. Its also my future and livelihood. so my plan is to hold fire for now, and wait the 3 weeks I have left and be kind to myself and stop using the ecig when I am under less pressure and give myself the time (ill be lucky enough) to have to chill out while I readjust.
Other than this, no thoughts of wanting to smoke a cigarette. In fact it feels almost alien now. peace xx