I've spent the entire day having arguments with myself about having a cigarette.
I didn't want to post something negative but I'm feeling quite desperate. I even got this 0 nicotine eCig out and have had it in my mouth almost all day. Apart from when I have to recharge it. I think I've worn the poor thing out....
Actually I have to be honest and say that I would definitely have had a smoke if I could've laid my hands on one. I suppose it's fortunate for me that I live in such a remote spot and while my husband's at work with the car I have no way of getting to a shop, the nearest one being 6 miles away.
I know why I feel this way. It's nothing to do with a need for nicotine. It's because I've always relied on cigarettes to calm me down, cheer me up, comfort me etc.
I woke up feeling so homesick for Africa and walking through soggy fields looking at grey skies didn't help one bit! Eating didn't help. The eCig didnt help. And this is all because I have this mindset that only a cigarette will make me feel all better. (It won't!)
Ok enough moaning. Just need to get that off my chest.