Please don't beat me up for this post. This is the only place where I can be open and honest. Most people don't even know that I smoked and those that do know, smoke themselves and would just say "well why don't you have one then..."
We had a lovely day with family yesterday. All smokers. Except me.
I felt VERY left out. I know it sounds so stupid that I should allow a cigarette habit to change the way I enjoy a family day. But I'm being honest here ok? It just wasn't the same.
Because we're the only ones in the family that smoke we all spend a lot of time together. We have fun and we all love each other. I felt that something had changed yesterday. Like I wasnt a member of the club anymore.
Amazing what a difference a cigarette makes! Am I only going to be alright when I'm home alone with no outside influence? Or will I forever yearn to join in and light up every time I'm out and see someone else smoking?
Having said that I can't not report on all the positive effects my quitting has had.
I have increased energy already! And I feel well when I wake up in the morning. Normally after a day like yesterday I would wake up with a croaky sore throat feeling lethargic and not great.
But today I woke up quite chirpy.
So that's what I need to concentrate on now. Improvement to my health.
Sorry for the long rant and thanks for listening.