2nd month

My first post on the 2nd month, oh the excitement :)!!! Good day everyone!

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Go Gal !!!

[nsd_user663_60880]

You got this! Stay strong

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free]

Well done mmaya, delighted for you!

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For anyone here on the champix, let me tell you a little story lol I woke up this morning, breakfast, kids to school, back home, shower, make up, got dressed and went to work... All normal.at around 11 am I started shaking on my hands - like an alcoholic that didn't have their drink, I couldn't stop it, all I could think of was go out and smoke one, one won't hurt and I'll stop again. After a big glass of water, I looked at my box of champix and realised I forgot to take the pill. Do not stop your medication, you are taking it for a reason, stick to it, please...and just maybe, I should start following my own advice and take the pills in time....still not smoking, all good.

[nsd_user663_51263]

Glad you got yourself sorted out Mmaya. Sounds like you had a scary time this morning. Keep taking the Champix as prescribed.

I sometimes wish I'd had a stab at it, it might have made this quit easier. I'm now 45 days in so it's too late now and I think I can keep going. The urge to smoke is getting weaker but it's still hanging around in the background. I wish it would go away!

I've been doing some reading on here and sometimes wonder what's wrong with me - so many people just sail through their quits with so much positivity and strength so I hope my feeble posts don't sound negative.

I'm positive I won't fail on this quit (I've forgotten what number it is), I'm feeling a sense of achievement as each day passes and I'm not fighting my quit. I just wonder how long it will take until I feel like a non smoker.

Hope tomorrow's a good day for both of us.

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It's not late at all to start the champix, I would probably be very in favour of you starting it and doing it on a low dose for 2 or 3 months until you are confident

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Linda, it's not all positivity. I had a very tough morning and even worse evening. Came home from work to see my daughter with a complete meltdown. It just broke my heart. It's very hard to deal with a wannabe grownup that hasn't grown up yet. The suffering on her eyes. I've never seen my daughter so sad and depressed, made me think seriously if I'm doing my job s a mother. The thing is I remember very well my last quit and how depressed I got. I remember it too well and I'm trying to remind myself every minute that this is not real. I end up lightening up a cigarette , and I hardly even had a drag, just threw it away. I'm not done here, I'm very far from being in a comfortable position, my quit is only starting now. I wasn't going to share this, only sharing because I want to tell you that it's not you linda, we are all going through the same thing, we are just probably not being as honest as you are.keep going. You should be out of that now...relax and enjoy it xxx

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Sorry you've had a tough day Mmaya. It is hard when we see our kids hurt and upset but it's all part of the growing up process and all you can do is be there for them as best you can. It never really stops even as they get older. We can only do the best we can for them until they get over whatever's troubling them. I'm sure you're a very good mother so don't doubt yourself for one second.

These things seem even worse when we haven't got our cigarettes at hand but life does go on just the same without them. We fool ourselves into thinking that smoking will somehow make things better.

Your daughter's young and I hope she can get over her upset quickly and move on. Things might seem a bit better for her after she's slept on it so fingers crossed they do. Just be there for her, that's all you can do.

What a pair we are but it's good to be able to share the ups and the downs.

Let's hope tomorrow will be a better day for all of us. xx

[nsd_user663_60880]

Thanks for your honesty Mmaya, dont doubt yourself like linda says