Oh my goodness. I'm not sure why I am finding this weekend difficult. Can't seem to engage in anything. Have taken rug and cushions outside to sit in the sun but I am inside looking at them. I have plenty of things to do but can't/don't want to do them. My inner stroppy teenager is defeating my positive suggestions. Really want to smoke which I think is how I would have dealt with this in the past. Can't settle...
what do I do sisters? (and brothers)
Don't surrender, your pining for something that you don't really want, remember when you had it you just wanted to stop and you have,..... your not putting thousands of poisonous chemicals inside yourself and there is no such thing as just one , that one will lead to more and you will have to start all over again. Let the stroppy teenager out and jump and rant and rave but whatever you do do not let them smoke xxxx
Thanks Shelly for reminding me how horrible it was - wierdly you forget!
Shelly what have you eaten so far today?
I have been quite good (so far) eaten big bowl of porridge, about 30 cups of tea and about 10 humbugs? Planning lunch in my head as we speak...
Well today hasn't been as bad have had breakfast them spag bog for dinner but since then a box of maltesers has also found its way into my tummy 
its strange I go from I want a cigarette to feelings of proudness at not having smoked in a blink of an eye, have had 2 lozenge today and actually put a patch on just to see if it helps, anything is better than smoking and this morning I actually had the first morning that I didn't straight away want a cig even after dinner I didn't so hopefully the habit has started dying and its just the addiction I need to kick x
Have a tantrum if you want but DONT smoke. You will feel worse if you give in. You are stronger that evil nicodemon. Hit him on the head don't let him win. He will eventually get the message and lay down and die. I know he's strong but you are stronger.
Explain to the inner stroppy teenager that this really REALLY is for her own good, tell her how brilliant she is and give her some major positive reinforcement - she really will thank you later! (I had one of those, too - I'm starting to wonder, Hattie, if we were in fact separated at birth - my teenager got a mention here!)
Tell her you're only doing this because you love her, and that you can't do it without her help. Then give her free access to chocolate, a good book and maybe a brew of some kind 
She'll chill.
Ha ha! Incy, I too was wondering whether we were related!
Thanks for the link to your post , it's helpful - especially the self encouragement, I think I may have been neglecting my teenager a little bit x
Update: on beverly's advice i have just sat teen down in front of the mirror and said 'I have beautiful lips'. She liked it!
Awesome 
Oh dear, the realisation of not smoking is kicking in, and indeed mr NICO is trying to raise his ugly head, but knuckle down, he's not going to win s he?
Doing so wonderful well it's hard in the early stages, but I can say this will get better, the longer the quit, then the easier and more natural it will become
I so hope to day is a better day for you
Thank you all so much. The encouragement is so appreciate, and it got me through a difficult period. It's so strange that I did the first two weeks CT with little problem but the last two weeks have been harder.
Last night it was like being in a frenzy. I just didn't know what to do with myself - I stood up, sat down, paced, I even drove half way to sainsburys to buy an aubergine and then turned back!! (Commitment issues?). Resorted to e cig in the end and cooked a chicken (!). I feel quite mad!
Anyway (deep breath) hoping today will be better. It is 1 month today, I've come a long way. Thanks so much for cheering me on xxx
Chuckling at the aubergine! And now craving aubergine no-meat balls (best faffing around in the kitchen recipe ever, brilliant for distraction!)
Yay for Hattie!
84 days quit and still struggling
