wibble wobble and off to bed i go!

I have had an absolute craaaap day today. in this order-

1) rowdy neighbours:mad:

2) my daughters birthday cant happen (insert steam from my ears here)and therefore is no more so will have a very upset wee girl on my hands. shes away at the moment so im trying to think of something that will replace said party!

3) everything else from unexpected bills, things not being delivered, stuff breaking, lol, you know those days where one thing is literally happening after the other? like a stack of dominoes it all went downhill after number 1)

now in the grand scheme of things this is the type of stuff id normally say no big deal (normally whilst im puffing on a fag while I think of next steps) but I cant seem to bat it off!

I DO NOT want to smoke. its again not an option but im certainly missing that outlet today. This is when I would smoke so I could sort out everything in my mind and as soon that ciggie was extinguished id know exactly what to do (load of rubbish, I know it did nothing of the sort). Its where I would grab 5 minutes outside on my lonesome creating magnificent plans. obviously I can do that without smoking ive done it for the last 6 weeks. but the old 'one will make today easier' is right there and it is constant.

I have now dragged my sorry self to my bed where I will eat chocolate, watch a soppy film and cry into my pillow like a teeneager experiencing their first heartbreak and repeat until I get a grip of myself:cool:

aaaaaaahhhh that's better sorry for the rant,tomorrow is a new day and it will be blooming spectacular smoke free one too!:D

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  • Laura, what a horrid time your having !!!

    You are hanging on to your quit, what ever it takes, chocolate , movie glass of wine, what ever as long as you don't smoke,.... Life will get easier I,m sure, all seems so enhanced when we are trying to quit, but just keep going. The longer you go, the easier it will be.

    Now you be very proud, sticking with this quit in these difficult times shows such strength. Massive well done from me :)

  • Hi Hun, sorry you've had a crap day, they seem to be doing the rounds at the moment! Defo early to bed shut yourself away for the night and hopefully tomorrow will be better, what you watching out of interest? :) xxx

  • It never rains but it ****es down indiscriminately doesn't it? Poor you, Laura. I do hope today is a better day for you.

    I'll bet you think of something for your daughter's birthday that'll make up for the lack of a party. When I was a child my parents arranged a few mystery birthday treats for me- I remember a surprise trip to Longleat, for example- so perhaps something like that?

    Anyway, may your weekend be a truly lovely one to make up for the pants day yesterday. :)

  • I hope things look better today Laura.

    Bed was right choice, I dealt with stress and evening craves in the same way. Unfortunately I still want to go to bed at 9pm latest every night to read/watch tv as it's become a habit! :eek:

  • Thankyou everyone for your comments:)

    Much better start today! Certainly 'bouncy' :D. My new kettle provided me with a lovely cuppa (my kettle broke yesterday) which then allowed me to sit merrily phoning various venues and things for my daughters party so waiting to hear back from those!

    Things are fixed, stuff has been delivered and I am getting a refund for being double billed on a direct debit! Lol! Annnnnd breathe!

    I can only conclude that yesterday was a big test of my willpower! And i nailed it:D lol

    Debbie! I had no rude dreams! I thoroughly deserved a happy rude dream after yesterday! I think my other half did though after I tried and failed miserably to get my chest area to do a happy dance on their own LOL

    Donna- I watched a fault in their stars..... My pillow is currently airing off! Enter with caution and at least two boxes of Kleenex and a crap load of junk food! should have learned from the book! :eek:

  • You sound much more the thing today Laura. :)

    So glad that all yesterday's problems seem to be resolving themselves.

  • Thankyou everyone for your comments:)

    Much better start today! Certainly 'bouncy' :D. My new kettle provided me with a lovely cuppa (my kettle broke yesterday) which then allowed me to sit merrily phoning various venues and things for my daughters party so waiting to hear back from those!

    Things are fixed, stuff has been delivered and I am getting a refund for being double billed on a direct debit! Lol! Annnnnd breathe!

    I can only conclude that yesterday was a big test of my willpower! And i nailed it:D lol

    Debbie! I had no rude dreams! I thoroughly deserved a happy rude dream after yesterday! I think my other half did though after I tried and failed miserably to get my chest area to do a happy dance on their own LOL

    Donna- I watched a fault in their stars..... My pillow is currently airing off! Enter with caution and at least two boxes of Kleenex and a crap load of junk food! should have learned from the book! :eek:

    Oh my goodness! That film is suuuuch a tear jerker! :/ glad today has been better for you, sounds like you have accomplished alot xx

  • Tea I unfortunately do not have a magic wand, a good nights sleep works wanders apparently and everything seemed not so bad when I woke up! Or I got my ***** together to be more exact haha!

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