Urge has gone

I've just come back from a long weekend with my brother and his partner. It was a visit I've put off for awhile as they're both smokers and smoke in the house. In fact it's the first time I've been round people smoking since I quit.

It's amazing how much things like this have changed over the last 10 years. I have friends that smoke but they don't smoke in their own homes so they nip out while you carry on, not really noticing that they've disappeared. People at work have to drive off site to smoke so I don't see smokers there.

So first time sitting at a table with baccy tins and lighters within reaching distance and smoke hanging in the air around me. I am so pleased to say that I was not tempted in the least, even with a couple of vodkas inside me. It wasn't the fact that I resisited and came through the weekend. I did not want to smoke.

I never thought I would ever get to this stage. I thought I'd always have to battle the temptation when I was in a situation like this. I've known for some time that I wasn't going to smoke again. That smoking was a lie that gave me nothing but there's a difference to knowing all that and actually not wanting to smoke at all.

I cannot believe I'm free of it after all this time.:D

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  • I've just come back from a long weekend with my brother and his partner. It was a visit I've put off for awhile as they're both smokers and smoke in the house. In fact it's the first time I've been round people smoking since I quit.

    It's amazing how much things like this have changed over the last 10 years. I have friends that smoke but they don't smoke in their own homes so they nip out while you carry on, not really noticing that they've disappeared. People at work have to drive off site to smoke so I don't see smokers there.

    So first time sitting at a table with baccy tins and lighters within reaching distance and smoke hanging in the air around me. I am so pleased to say that I was not tempted in the least, even with a couple of vodkas inside me. It wasn't the fact that I resisited and came through the weekend. I did not want to smoke.

    I never thought I would ever get to this stage. I thought I'd always have to battle the temptation when I was in a situation like this. I've known for some time that I wasn't going to smoke again. That smoking was a lie that gave me nothing but there's a difference to knowing all that and actually not wanting to smoke at all.

    I cannot believe I'm free of it after all this time.:D

    I am so happy for you Sued, IMHO that realisation of freedom is worth every one of those rotten days at the beginning of the quit :) This is such an inspirational post, I hope all newbies, and those thinking they'll never be free of this stinking habit realise just what is waiting for them if they persevere :cool:

  • At the beginning you just can't imagine feeling that way:D

    Then one day it's just like that.....and it's time to let go completely,:D

    Well done Sued.....FANTASTIC....:D

  • Sue thats fabulous that you feel free. I hope u havent lost the urge in other ways too lol x

    Hi Deb

    Welcome back, missed you. No that urge is very much on the up, less restricted blood vessels!!!!!

  • So pleased for you Sue, and it's also nice to know there does come a day when it happens naturally xxxx

    I know what you mean TG and it's a little bit unbelievable.:D

  • At the beginning you just can't imagine feeling that way:D

    Then one day it's just like that.....and it's time to let go completely,:D

    Well done Sued.....FANTASTIC....:D

    Yes I do feel like I've left it behind me now. It's something I used to do.

    I think from now on I have to make sure I don't just try one, not because I want one but out of curiosity again or because I think I can.

    There are too many stories on here of long term quits ended by a cigar at Xmas or just a quick drag when drunk.

  • Yes I do feel like I've left it behind me now. It's something I used to do.

    I think from now on I have to make sure I don't just try one, not because I want one but out of curiosity again or because I think I can.

    There are too many stories on here of long term quits ended by a cigar at Xmas or just a quick drag when drunk.

    Absoloutely brilliant news Sue, I can't wait for that day when I really feel free from smoking, you are quite right though you need to maintain the NOPE ethic I am certain we will partying with u on 20th jan 2015 when u make the penthouse :) xxx

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